1) If given a choice to decide your birth, where would you choose?
Singapore! I love Singapore! I love it tho its boring at times. I love LKY(bah!), the stupid education system and the fact that everyone knows one another in one way or another, and the multiraciality and because Singapore is so SAFE! man i'm patriotic. I nv fail watching NDP and singing all the singapore songs. COUNT ON ME SINGAPORE....
2) If given a choice to meet your 1st friend who will be with you for a lifetime, where will it be?
My first fren to be with me for a life time.. probably pri or sec school. heh. just so they can know me longer. and know whatever bad habits i have and still love me. haha
3) If there's an flight accident & you end up lost somewhere, at the end of the day where do you hope you are at?
I hope i end up lost in Europe. With money that someone else lost. hahaha. alot of money. so i can go tour europe.YEAHHHHHHHh.
4) Where did you hope to have met your 1st love?
I hope i din meet my first love so early. I would want my first love to be the last.But in real life its just hard for it to be like dat. simple and uncomplicated.BAHH.
5) Where would you want to have your wedding?
I would want to have my wedding on a beach that is deserted but have really beautiful scenery.
OR a real nice flower garden... with really nice decor.
6) Where do you hope to enjoy life when you've retired?
I want to travel the world. With the love of my life. and enjoy all the romantic getaways.
7) Everyone will die sooner or later. So given a choice to decide your deathplace, where will you choose?
In my room, on my bed. peacefully. when i 'm old. if i die early, i want to die preaching, doing God's work.
7:32 AM.
Friday, October 21, 2005
morbidity to the max
i want to tell the whole world
all the thoughts and curses in my head
plagueing me, sinking me
I feel the surface of my being going weak
crumbling under the pressure
the insides being dug out and hardened like a stone
the world seems a crazy place
a life full of masquerades and fakes
its hard to believe that anything is real
faith seems to seep away to non-existence
this whirlwind uproots me, throws me, slams me
anywhere but in the eye of the storm
warmth, love, responsibility, respect
all sounds foreign to me
what is happiness? what is anything anymore?
simulated world of our own.
voices in my head
undescribable weight in my chest
the gasp of life when i wake up from a nightmare
clawing out of the mud buried over my head
feeling my heartbeat pound in my head
someone's chasing me
wants to kill me
someone wants to hurt me.
or change me.
Or is it me?
Hate. a powerful word. i hate the word hate.
scarred souls
shattered mirrors
broken families
violated bodies
cracked vase
withered flowers
mass destruction
massacre
why do we do this to ourselves?
humans are great at destroying things. we destroy others, destroy ourselves, destroy anything that can be destroyed. we think we are capable to love and care. we do more harm instead.
Father, teach us how to live.
"forgive them for they know not what they do"
10:56 PM.
latest nicest pictuer of my roomie... with latest additions -mirror and rug from ikea! that only cost me 23 bucks altogether!
9:27 PM.
oops. decided to make my bed and put up my stuffed toys which are always on the floor.my walls are totally cluttered.
9:24 PM.
overview of room...
9:23 PM.
a rug from ikea! new addition to my room..
9:20 PM.
the mirrors that i bought from ikea! the sticker marks are on the wall from my previous attempt to liven up my room with colourful cardboad stars.
9:19 PM.
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
Bah.This is so insulting. hahha. I gonna waste another one hour writing this blog. shucks.
Well i started with what happened over my weekend. crammed with one event after another.
friday after i finished tuition i really just went back and collapsed. woke up at 7 am on sat, had to be in church by 8am.. its been a long time since i did flag day.. but i like flag day actually. heh. especially if u do with ur best friends. all the youth were tasked to go to orchard to sell flags the whole day, but since it was too early we all went to little india. hah. i don't know why we chose to go there but ya.
It was congested with all of us decked in red shirts..*premature christmas* There was one funny incident that happened there. i was asking ppl to donate and this man who was quite elderly with a walking stick who looked quite well off asked what it was for. He asked in chinese.. so i had to answer him in my limited vocabulary. I din know how to tell him that it was for a community service centre for the elderly and youth so i just said," gei na xie bu xing de ren" *give to the unfortunate* he den became agitated and began saying he also very unfortunate also nobody help him. I inched away slowly. hahaa.
I was the team leader for siao er and her other rjc friends, we were supposed to go to wheelock place and orchard mrt there to ask for donations.. so we went after an hour at little india. my tin was quite full by 12 pm.. i really very hardworking sia, din even have any break. my shoulders and back was aching for standing so long...I was guarding one of the entrances from orchard mrt,cos the other side already armed with all the rest ready to tackle anyone in their war path.
HAHha. I really asked every single person that passed me la.. There were many stingy ang mohs, but very occasionally there were those who were v generous and friendly.
Heh i got lots of two dollar notes which really spurred me on.. and actually i really have to agree that girls really do get more donations than the guys. hahha. Colin came to join me just before lunch and he kept shooting me the looks when i got my donations. hahahaa. was quite fun la.
There was this really cute little boy that was about to put all his mum's money into my tin. and he also wanted all my stickers. his mum had to keep some for his mrt fare and he just left in a daze with two stickers in his hand. i waved him bye bye.. and turned away den he called out real loudly," zeh zeh! Bye bye!! " so cute la!!! next time my son will also be such a darling!!
i also did a good deed.. heh. got this ang moh who was sitting at a bench nearby den i asked him for donation.. he asy he only got fifty dollars..so i said nvm. after a while he came to me and asked me where was the nearest pay phone cos he needed to call his fren who was late and he needed change.. so i just gave him 10cents to use. den he was pretty surprised that i was goingto give him 10cents like 10cents was alot of money. hahha. so yar, he came back with his fren and donated some coins back. =)
after lunch we headed to infront of paragon to sell flags instead so we wun be like a plague at the orchard mrt. haha. summore all the miserly decided to wake up and walk ard after lunch.. and it was really hard to get ppl to donate. we walked past ngee ann city where they was this women's fair or sth. there was this stage and this aerobics class was doing a really spastic dance. rofl.
met up uncle eddy and damily.. brought little sarah to sell flags. she so cute she ask ppl also donate lor. but then she got tired of asking so when i asked she would just stick her tin out. and her excuse would be," ur tin very heavy already" hahha.
we all headed back to church at 4 and i helped to count the money. we had coin counting machines but we also had to count manually. i was with all the adults in a room with all the tables shaped into a conveyor belt and i sat on one of the desks..counting money tin by tin. nv counted so much money in my entire life. hhaa. den after all the tins were counted i helped to do checking with the coin machines. quite a fun experience la. den helped to do some admin. stuffed a curry puff down den had to rush for practice to sing for service at 730. was really shagged by the time i got home.
woke up sunday real early again. downpour. after second service kaiyin, colin and i went thai express to eat lunch.. actually i find comfort in being in a nice cozy place in the midst of very heavy rain knowing u are inside and u can look out the window at the storm..it just feels all warm and toasty..which leads me to my ideal date.. my ideal date would be jus to cuddle up in alot of throw pillows, cushions and wrapped ard in woolly comforter, next to the window where it is pouring outside, with a cup of hot chocolate and good book in my hand... with some music playing in the background..(preferably corrine may or acoustic) and den my darling would be cookin for me in the kitchen we'll have a candlelight dinner and den we'll just sit by the tv watch a good show and snuggle up in all the cushys! aww..
well.. i got home on sunday in the early evening and finally had a rest.. and its a new week again.. sigh!yesterday still go shopping with marie summore. hahah. not intended, but we ended up spending a few hours at mango. heh.
finally the end of the entry that i wrote before. bah. i feel kinda stupid now. hahha.
6:51 AM.
Monday, October 17, 2005
i cant believe it. i wrote an entire blog entry for one hour. i pressed publish post and it went ot blog not found. i went back and my whole entry was gone. PISSED!!
8:54 PM.
Friday, October 07, 2005
This week has been kinda horrendous...but it ended with a resounding note of prevailing hope.
This week started LSM 2102 test which is 40 percent..and it was kinda indescribable...hahha. ya. and had stats test on fri... which also din really put me in the best of moods. YAH.. but the most amazing thing happened yesterday. I really think i am really so forgetful..its been countless times i left things on the bus. and I think its been a record with bus 95. It either its jinxed or i am jinxed man. but i choose to believe the former. hahhaa.
anyway... actually marie and i were just recuperating from the stats test and we were contemplating going to bugis for retail therapy. We were at the bus stop at the soc side across science fac.we were kind of in a daze la, den we were talking and we were buying drinks from the dispenser.. i had my wallet on my hand, and 95 came, so we got on the bus with our drinks and all. DUnoe Y me and my warped sense told me i dropped sth when we reached the buona vista stop. SO i asked marie: where's my wallet ah? I checked my bag. DOn't have. I checked the floor everywhere. Dun have. so not on bus. we got off the bus. marie took down the bus number, just in case. gave my bag a big upheaval, and still no wallet. PANIC.
then we took the overhead bridge thinking maybe i left it at the nus bus stop or sth. cant remember whether i tapped my card also. SO we called eugene and the whole world who could possibly be in school to help me check first. we couldnt find any cabs, those got ppl one, no ppl one also wun stop for us lor! den the bus was taking forever, so we called the SBS services, no one picked up at any number we dialled. EVEN LOST AND FOUND! darn.
then eugene called back say dun have at the bus stop. MEANS its on the damn 95 we took!maroe said we should go to the terminal instead then. 95 takes a loop but it may end up at the terminal so we took our chances. I was silently trying to accept the reality that my wallet with everything precious to me, and hundred over dollars inside was gone. Being the v frentic me, i told marie that we should just jay walk, and not cross the overhead bridge and climb those freaking flight of stairs. hahha. so we crossed our half of the road, and suddenly the other side was like swarming with traffic. can't cross. stuck in the middle of the road like 2 kukus. ME AND MY BRIGHT IDEA. hahah. So i said a silent prayer...God, please let me find my wallet!
we saw an opportunity to cross so we dashed across like two siao cha bors. hahha. *sorry marie , for risking your life* hahaha. then there were a train of buses at the bus stop. when we crossed we missed the first 95 at the start of the train of buses. so we walked to the back and we saw another 95. marie went to the bus, saw the bus number plate and shrieked: THIS IS THE SAME BUS WE TOOK JUST NOW! *freak freak freak* really!! i was like in my head: HOW CAN THIS BE!!
we scrambled upt he bus, asked the uncle, he nicely waited while we turned the bus upside down. Checked the bus and floor, same result: v clean. I had this nagging feeling that the wallet dropped in between the seat and i told marie just now. so marie really checked and we found my wallet! intact! with everything inside! MY!!!!!!!!! I WAS REALLY SCREAMING IN GIGGLING WITH GLEE LA! and i hugged marie and told HER SHE IS MY LIFE SAVER! hhahaa.
have to mention: THANK YOU GOD for answering my prayer!!
WAHHHA. that was like so exciting. it got us out of the dreary mood, and we were on the mrt still in total awe of the whole situation. LIKE WHAT ARE THE ODDS!! hahaha.marie called ivan and i babbled to him the whole thing. he was trying to act like very interested la. BUT I DUNCH CARE. i just went on and on. hahhaa.
YEAH!! miracle!
Once again... I LOVE U MARIE! shall make a plaque for you! LIFESAVER AWARD. hahah. it'll be the most unforgettable thing. hhahha. right after the event, i felt like right after that time in JC where i deafeated that snatch thief and got back my handphone. HAHAHHA.
8:33 PM.
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
HAHHA. today was the NUH performance! earned sixty dollars for a dance! YEAH! love ya marie! (cos she got Riverz hooked up with a gig) Was quite fun. I burnt the whole day away..BAh. really balant disregard for test on fri.
shucks. tmr still got riverz sit-back-n-relax-n-enjoy-our-own-recital day.
hahaha.neh mind la.
i v tired le.. so not gonna write much.. hope u all liked the pictures! hahaha. VANESSA, MARIE AND JIAHUI's birthdays. had a blast with them! especially love meeting up with my gang of five! VANESSA, KAIYIN, JIANNING AND VALARIE I LOVE U ALL TO BITS!!!
hahahha. okay. time to sleep lydia.
8:53 AM.
Tuesday, October 04, 2005
what was left of the melted willy wonka bar.. i bought the bar for jiahui (got chance of winning golden ticket!) but it melted in the hot weather. so we sorta, squeezed the goo out to eat. haha.sorry dan, i took the slightly nicer looking portion tt i wanted to help u take out. hahha.
5:47 AM.
jiahui's 21st birthday celebration! with NUS gang at mac!
5:44 AM.
oh secret shot. UNGLAM.. jianning becoming aunty liao. from left: Kaiyin, Jianning, Vanessa
5:43 AM.
jiahui cake. See i eat so many cakes in a span of 4 days.
5:41 AM.
marie's birthday cake!
5:40 AM.
poor joseph. being maid for all of us. HAHAHA! too bad u are val's boyfriend! vanessa trying to make it seem like she is the boss! joseph still so happy.
5:38 AM.
crazy girls. ball of a time. literally.
5:36 AM.
vanessa and pressies!! bracelet, handbag and top!
5:36 AM.
at the esplanade!! gorging on cakes! we were making so much noise.. so much for a romantic night for the couple next to us. hhaha.SORRY!
5:35 AM.
the birthday cakes gourmet buffet! for vanessa! the one on top(yellow) smashed liao cos kaiyin keep swinging the bag.ha. cheese cake, green tea cake, mango cake, strawberry cake and tiramisu! compliments of bread talk!
5:33 AM.
My group of best friends for almost eight years now! at candy empire! drowning ourselves in chocs galore! at candy empire!!
5:30 AM.
Vanessa's birthday! mY best friend!!
5:28 AM.
updateS! marie's birthday celeb! Hungry people... and jiahui already cannot stand it liao. hahha. from left: me, gladys, marie, june, jiahui
5:27 AM.