its been ages
i know. i always start with this, right. that i haven blogged in a million years. hhahha. must be many million years already. oh man where should i start. this sem was terrible. TOns of projects, assignments and term papers. first sem i survived on red bull and 2 hrs of sleep per night for 3 weeks. will never forget it man. plus exams were eye-openers. FOR 3 years i've been in NUS i have NOT sat for exams tt made me feel like that. okay. i should stop.i promised myself i will not complain abt the exams ever again. hahaha.
anyway i shall give a run down of the sem's events..with some pics!! this is the last sem of 3rd year! and everyone is graduating!! left a few of us. so sad. it wont be the same without the extended nus gang... and i having problems getting a hons project, something tt i will be interested in. i think cutting up and catching crustaceans and spiders isnt really my cup of tea. how. i feel like i not v cut out for hons lei. i sort of bluffed my way thru these 3 years of nus, dunno what i learn lei? haha. and then now i feel like i trying to fit into hons, where those ppl have been involved in research ever since they started studying in nus, and those ppl with super high CAP and super smart tt type.HOW.. bah.
well.. many things to do this holidays:
1) Teen edge camp (18th -20th june)- sherm is away in the states and i have lots to do and plan every week!
2) Church camp (8th- 11th june)- malacca
3) bulletin and announcements everyweek
4) TEENS tee shirt
5) Driving! starting 21st may- YEAH! 10 lessons booked!
6) CHildren dance- have to chereo 2 dances for lower and upper primary students
7) Year 4 module ( going tioman for 2 weeks! let's hope i dun too badly in this exams and still can do hons!I have God's grace!)
8) RED bull * i need moolah. really broke. stupid MOE give so little money.haha
9) MOE briefings ( BAH!)
10) Jordanites camp
11) Delinquents camp( hahha..going to help those kids at risk)
12) GET A TAN!!! ( i need a work-out!i so fat.BAH!)
OKAY this is it so far. but i think can die already. wheres my holidays! hahah
8:30 AM.
Thursday, April 05, 2007
7:10 AM.
this visual dna thing is really accurate! ha. its cool.
6:58 AM.
Thursday, March 08, 2007
this is my girly- shermaine. she looks gorgeous! great time with her preparing for the skit and all. haha.
8:52 AM.
i like this pic cos i look thin here.haaa
8:49 AM.
the Grand Ballroom at OCC. it was such a fun and successful event tho i was too busy running aroud to really enjoy the food.ha.this pic shows only half the tables!
8:46 AM.
eunice and me.. my baby girl i mentored when she was still a little girl! cant believe she's all grown and going to JC already! love her to bits. pretty girl. beware of the guys! ha
8:43 AM.
marilyn and i, all ready for our big dance performance at OCC for GTC's 50th anniversary!!
8:41 AM.
the track team of tjc in year 02/03/04.. 3 generations here. ha.
and not forgetting Mr Goh. miss running with him.ha.Beautiful ppl.
8:31 AM.
we were pretty in pink on valentine's day. it was a great day spent with friends and people who appreciate u. :) happy b day val too! u're 22 years old! ha!my turn next!
8:28 AM.
3rd day chinese new year- eugene's place for steamboat and lots of fun and laughter! me is the happy cos got food.hhaa
8:04 AM.
Our annual track gathering on the 3rd day of CHinese new year...at GOH GOH's (track coach) house. haha.. me and miaoxin - junior track captain for boys! He always huat at ban luck when i around. hahah
7:58 AM.
Sunday, February 11, 2007
sherm, me, jessica, deborah, bernice.
my precious girls! :) MWAH!
6:34 AM.
TeenEdge SAT! sherm and i are about 6 over years older but we look like them don't u think so!! HAHAH
6:30 AM.
Happy BELATED 24th Birthday Daniel Matthew Wong!
Psst... YOu're OLD! HAHAHHA
shan't tell others about ur age. Oops. HAHAH!
My girls from NUS! jia, marie, me and june!
6:20 AM.
AHHHH! this cake is damn nice!!! super heavenly. currently my fav cake!!!it's called EBONY. complimentary of tcc! YEAH!
6:16 AM.
Birthday boy and our present!! VERY HEAVY lo! HAHA.but v nice bag.
daniel, better take care of the bag hor~
6:14 AM.
dinner at essential brew!
6:12 AM.
Dan's 24th Birthday. HHAHA.OLD LE. after dinner at essential brew, we went to my brother's tcc outlet and we got free cakes!!! and DANIEL got free membership card from my bro lor. so nice.HHAHA
6:09 AM.
Thursday, January 11, 2007
i can't believe this. i must be the kuku-est person on earth. do u know where i am now? i am at arts central library at 8 plus in the morning and i thought i was freaking half an hour late for the lecture cos it was raining and the traffic was crawling today...i was rushing, i got down at commonwealth thinking of taking a cab down cos NOBODY strolls into french half an hour late. the lecture is only how big- 30 ppl and the lecturer will sure aim me next time lor. i got down at commonwealth which was always always empty with alot of cabs, i can normally get one in a min. BUT today there was a long line of people and no cabs!!! i made a quick decision to hop onto the first bus i saw at the bus stop which brought me to the next bus stop to take 95. 95 came swiftly but traffic was slow. i reached arts at 830, and ran to as4. i looked into the lect room and discovered it empty. panic. mental note that i will definitely miss class this time. went to central library and to ivle. i went to the same page i went yesterday to check info for french. i missed the last line on the page. lectures start 15th jan. next week!!! i woke up early for nothing. i look like shit and i'm aching everywhere. i really want to bang my head against the wall.
ok after all the complaining, i really need to look at the flipside and thank God for the long line of people so i din waste money taking cab, thank God for a friend who was an angel at 7 plus inthe morning to help me check where my lesson was, thank God for letting me wake up alittle later so i slept a little more. ha.
my next lesson is at 2pm. bah. hoho. i don't feel so bad anymore. buti really want to sleep. ha. God,pls help me to be less blur.
4:57 PM.
Wednesday, January 10, 2007
It's year 2007. i'm just glad year 2006 is over. all the things i really want to say will never be said here. i don't know why i continue to write in this blog anyway. i am considering shutting it down. the things of 2006 have made me a different person. sometimes i wonder who is that girl standing in the mirror. do i really know what i want, or possibly what God wants for me? those decisions that might never come by again, that i have already made, did i really know what i was doing?
the things i've seen and been through. all that hatred and bitterness gnawing my insides. i am numbed by the pain, the pain i will feel if i let it get to me, i have cried till i'm empty, and given till i'm dry. i fear of the day i might not feel a thing anymore. One thing constant in all this craziness is God, and i only live on with his Hope..if not there's nothing worth living for.
the resonating sound of this house
was it called home
or an empty shell
after a weary day
i open the door with a fear
of broken glass and shards
of piercing words of blood and poison
of faded love and darkened wisdom
of shattered dreams,stifled lives
of a resounding echo of death
the life in me halves each time
an angry knife is stabbed right deep within
something pure stained
do you know the love,joy and peace that was robbed from me
was replaced by the hurt, betrayal and hatred
respect by contempt
i want to laugh, not out of how i usually laugh so easily
but because i'm feeling cynical and crazy
i try to look for you on every bus that passes
every room i think 'maybe u're in there'
every corner i turn
but i don't know who i am looking for
i laugh at myself, cos i look so pathetic.
even this post i think twice about posting
cos of the consequences i have to face
people asking questions
the questions you have left me to answer
the impact on people whom i love and lead
hence i will stop here
maybe for good
maybe when i feel like i got something better to say
maybe when i don't have to delete the things i really want to say
maybe when.
I pretended I'm glad you went away
These four walls closin' more every day
And I'm dying inside
And nobody knows it but me
Like a clown I put on a show
The pain is real even if nobody knows
Now I'm cryin' inside
And nobody knows it but me
E.E. Cummings - I Carry Your Heart With Me
I carry your heart with me,i carry it inMy heart
i am never without it
anywhereI go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
By only me is your doing,my darling
I fear No fate
for you are my fate,my sweet
i want No world
for beautiful you are my world,my true
And it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant
And whatever a sun will always sing is you
Here is the deepest secret nobody knows
here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
And the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
Higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide
And this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart
I carry your heart
i carry it in my heart
6:59 AM.
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
Shackles Team from Riverz! tt's me in yellow!
9:37 PM.